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FOOD:
8:40 AM - Apple & granola bar, low fat choco-milk (2%)
11:40 AM - granola bar, water
2:40 PM - Unsure - suggestions? I have to go out...didnt have anything at home to make lunch.
5:40 PM - bran blueberry muffin
8:40 PM - Unsure

Played so much 3rd Strike that I got a huge blister on my thumb. Had to pop it today. It oozed clear liquid for like 30 or so seconds. which is alot.  And whats sad is Im probably no better at 3rd Strike for all that work. lol.

I wasn't even able to pan down a whole plate of food at the restaurant I went to for lunch. So I know the change in eating habits is helping me eat less at least. And I noticed over the lan this past weekend, even though I did drink alot of Pepsi...I chugged like 3 large glasses of water right afterwards. So I was too full to eat alot. And what I did eat wasn't really bad.

ahem...yeah. Doom. Anyway...

Woke up late this morning. So my schedule is all fucked up. Got to work late. They didn't have a problem with it...I just really hate being late. So I didnt get to pack a lunch or eat breakfast. So by lunch time its gonna take two kittens and a baby to fill the beast!

On the Julia front, things seem decent. She and I talked for a long time...well I did alot of talking and hopefully she did some listening. She apologized for the bullshit...actually thanked me for sticking it out and not leaving.

Its Pole Position bitches! It'll leave skid marks on your soul!

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Om84Zc4-KcQ[/youtube]

Apparantly she's getting out today. Called and talked to her mom for a little bit to see how she's doing since we weren't talking. She asked me to pick Julia up after I got out of work. Which I said I would do.

But I honestly don't know what to say to her right now. I'm still very confused about alot and I don't wanna do something stupid...or say something stupid.

It's probably gonna be a really quiet ride back to her place. I wanna see her, but I'm afraid to. I dunno.

I guess I'll just wait and see what happens.

FOOD:
8:15 AM - Apple, water
11:15 AM - granola bar, water
2:15 PM - noodles & beef sausage, water
5:15 PM - granola bar, water
8:15 PM - ?? (undetermined yet)

WORKOUT:
20 Minutes of DDR

Pretty down today, so I'm gonna try to keep busy at work, and probably work out then take a nap when I get home.

Sadly no pics because my dad took his camera out of town this weekend. so I couldnt borrow it.

4, 12 packs of pepsi, 8 pizza's and an ass of chips and dip. Thats alotta crap.

It was a decent weekend. Was a little loney, but my controllers kept me company. Played some Halo 2 a little and some old-school fighters. But thats about it. Not many people showed. About 7 total. And everyone just wanted to either play Mortal Kombat or watch movies.

Actually slept well last night. I'm glad about that. Need the sleep for gaming goodness tonight.

Tonight is the 1st night of my 2-night Lantacular event. I'll post pics up as I get them taken.

Here's my food schedule thus far.
FOOD:
8:20 AM - granola bar, water
11:20 AM - granola bar, water
2:20 PM - turkey & swiss on wheat sub w/mustard, water, small pack of baked chips (100 calorie bag), water
5:20 PM - 1 cup of low salt peanuts, more water

Today wasn't too bad. Didn't go into work because I was just too damn tired. Running on 1 hour of sleep...I wouldn't be able to do shit. I'd mess up so many print jobs...I'd probably get canned.

Anyway. It wasn't bad, but not that it didnt have its few rough spots. There were a few spots where I really wanted to just talk to her or see her. But I can't. Thats kinda hard.

Felt like something wasn't quite right with her the past few times we've talked. I was right. She's been suicidal the past few nights and hasn't told me.

So guess where I've been all fucking night....in the emergency room waiting for her to get transferred to Aurora Pavillion (mental hospital).