I was just going to post this in my clan forum, but decided to share with all my site friends. Going to start chemo treatments again tomorrow. If i suddenly drop out of a game or a party without saying goodbye like i always do, it's because i'm too sick to talk. i may get my feelings hurt as easily as a ten year old girl. i may go 1 and 14 every single game. And i may get really cranky and quit playing after two games.
i've had two flare ups in the past few months. This one i'm in now...it's BAD. The worst i've had since well before i started the 'new, big, scary' chemo. i'm in too much pain to function. i'm too exhausted to think clearly. My brother is coming home from Hawaii for a little over a week. He's only coming home once this year. i refuse to spend that week curled up on the couch crying, and unable to do something as simple as go to lunch with him. I REFUSE! And so...i cheated.
It started with a sore throat. The kind that makes you suspect someone has poured acid down your throat while you slept. i saw the doctor Tuesday, and he said it's not strep or any other infection. Which is good.
Well it was good while it lasted. The last round of chemo seems to have stopped working. Either that or the small dose i take of Methotrexate once a week has stopped working. OR i'm in a flare up or all of the above. I don't know. All i know is, i'm in a lot of pain again, i'm exhausted all the time, i have NO appetite, and i'm PISSED. If the chemo doesn't work anymore, i'm literally out of options. Nothing left to do but live in pain and wait for the end. Yay for depressing blogs!
The chemo treatments have worn off as predicted, right on schedule. i get up every day a little sicker than the day before. Which SUCKS. But i am nowhere near as sick as i was six months ago, so that doesn't suck. i had a good few months there where i felt a LOT better! i was even able to eat and gain some weight. i'm up to 102 lbs! YAY ME! i was up to 104 lbs though, but since the chemo's wearing off, i'm back to barely eating.
The chemo treatments have worn off as predicted, right on schedule. i get up every day a little sicker than the day before. Which SUCKS. But i am nowhere near as sick as i was six months ago, so that doesn't suck. i had a good few months there where i felt a LOT better! i was even able to eat and gain some weight. i'm up to 102 lbs! YAY ME! i was up to 104 lbs though, but since the chemo's wearing off, i'm back to barely eating.
