Weird.

I'm home. After a long few weeks on the road I am finally home. And the worst thing that could happen to me has happened. I am bored. So bored in fact, I have accepted an invitation to a flea market in which, I quickly changed my mind and declined. Why I declined ties into the title of my post. But first, to help you better understand, I am going to throw some background at you. I, like most people who rent, have a roommate. I have known this person for over decade. We are comfortable around each other. We share similar taste in things. We are both responsible human beings. And because we are friends, and do not make allot of money, we decided to get a apartment together. We have lived together for over a year now, and have been harmonious. But there is one thing. My roommate is a girl. A very hot girl. Now there are two things that always happen, that I oddly enough, never saw happening. The first one being that whenever I am introduced I am always mistaken for a homosexual. And the second is sometimes there is some awkwardness, and for no reason other than me inside my head analyzing how my actions will be perceived. This morning was just another example.

Last night I hopped online to find two friends I have made because of this very website. We played some Halo ODST Firefight until about 5 a.m.. After they went to bed I watched some online videos followed by some light room cleaning. By 7:30 I was completely and utterly bored with absolutely nothing to do. 8 a.m. rolls around and Nicole pops out of her room. After the exchange of "Good mornings" she mentions that her and her sister are going to some huge flea market. And she then asks do I want to tag along. Before I had an opportunity to fully think it over I accepted, and thats when my brain kicks in. I think to myself if I go I am going to be that guy who is just looming around...not saying anything....making everything just feel weird. As I have said before I have been in allot of relationships, and if there is one thing I have learned when girls go shopping no man is going to have any place in any conversation they are going to have. So now I have got to back out. So I say "Hey Nicole, I changed my mind I think I am going to just chill here." Which of course she then asked "Are you sure? Why don't you want to go?" Now I don't want to say the truth, so I lie. "You know I really do not have very much money I can blow, so maybe some other time." Of course her sister just happens to walk into the conversation, and she is not helping my cause. She knows I am never home and I need to get out, so she is pretty much refuting any answer I give them. Now I am not an complete idiot. I know that the initial invitation was out of courtesy. I do not think, she thought I was going to accept. After I did and quickly declined she and her sister knew right away it was for no reason other than I am a dude and would be out of place. They do not want me to feel left out so now they are bombarding me with "Are you sure? You should come. Why not? How often do you get to carelessly spend money? It will be fun." I keep sending them half answers like "Nah. I really can't. I just can't. No , you guys go. I'll be fine here. I'm positive I don't want to go." These little thing keep happening. I just can't win. I enjoy hanging out with her but it always feels like I am the baggage. Or at least in my head it feels that way. And these little moments of weirdness have started to occur only after we moved in together.

Anyway I am in for the weekend if anyone wants to tear it up on some Halo 3 online. Hit me up guys.