Nightmare at my Mom's street

I dont know if it is all the stress from work, or that I have not played any games for the past week becuase I wanted to spend time with my Mom and family.Or this is somehow a way to break an addiction. My wife has told me a few times that I might be addicted to gaming. Maybe I am, maybe is just an illusion or the need for something I dont have right now.

 Have you ever had a nightmare that last the entire night? Well that's what happened to me. Dont know if it's because I am to obsessed with Valve's game Team Fortress 2, or the fact that I am upset with them because there wont be a demo for us XBOX players. Last night I kept having the same nightmare that I was talking to one of Valve's developers, discussing why they did not have a demo for Xbox and looking for ways for me to gain access to the game in the PC via my Xbox. Cant you imagine how f$$# up that sounds??Somehow I need to bypass Xbox live, get to the internet, find someone that has pre-ordered the Orange Box or just find Valve's servers and join their session from my 360. I guess anything is possible in your dreams. However the entire night was the same nightmare over, and over, and over. And everytime I woke up I kept thinking: Is this really a dream??? Will I meet one of Valve's developers and have the chance to discuss how can I get to the demo?

You might think: "Well Purg, you can buy the PC version and get to the demo next week" Hell NO!!!!. First I will need to upgrade both the RAM memory of my PC and the video card, then I might think of buying A game for PC. I dont have money. That's why i have 2 jobs to be able to afford SOME games for 360 and my wife's DS. I cant even imagine spending an additional 200-300 just to play one game. Not that TF2 does not deserve that kind of money, but with this fall's lineup of games, I dont have the extra cash.

However......FASA closed their operations today, meaning I should get rid of my copy of Shadowrun as soon as possible because noone will support it. I actually feel kinda sad. Shadowrun is a great game. It has been years since a game hooked me so much as Shadowrun. The last time I felt like that was with StarWars Battlefront series. I played it so much that I just cant play it anymore. Probably the game is worth less than $10. I guess anything helps.

I keep telling myself: I hope TF2 delivers. I just cant wait for that game to be released. With all these nightmares, posts on my blog that talk only about TF2, and my ADHD acting up because of this game, I guess you can call me an addict. YES. I have an addiction. I am addicted to TF2 and the game is not even out. Should I go to the doctor now?

Until next time