Sometimes I just hate people...

That old Stones tune comes to mind "I cant get no satisfaction." Thats kinda the way things have been for me lately. I should be a litte happier about things, but been kinda bored.

Works been good, but kinda repetative. Things with the girlfriend are stable, but things with her mom have been aggravating. It seems shes taking pleasure in keeping us seperated. And Im close to telling this woman where to go, how to get there and what to do when she gets there....and with what. Found out shes the one whose been buying Julia cigerettes...then complains when the girl drinks caffienated beverages because there "bad for her diabetes" or cutting because she will "get gangrene and lose a limb". But have some cigerettes honey...cancer, stroke, and anything else is better than caffienated energy drinks. When she went and asked Julia for a cig the other day she looks at me and says "I didnt buy em", like she was some kinda teenage girl not wanting to get caught. I just looked at her and said "Well I dont remember Julia having a fucking job that gets her money. So I think that just leaves you wouldnt it?" Oh I wanted to back hand that woman so hard for being such an idiot. RAAAAAARGH!

On the friends front, a good buddy of mines 2 -year relationship has ended. Not by his choice. This happened a couple of weeks ago. So of course hes been down in the dumps. He did alot to keep it going, but to no avail. And I have tried to be very understanding because Ive come close to losing my relationship as well, but I thought there was supposed to be some kind of progress or moving forward into a healing process. But it just seems like the same conversation with him...with no change except for a new theory as to why things happened the way they did. And its getting old. Ive had other friends break up and still be able to carry on a conversation about other things. And he can do that for all of 5 minutes....then its back to the relationship problem. Because I dont think hes accepted the fact that its over. Hes trying to hold onto a glimmer of hope...which I do understand...but there are other things going on in the world. I dunno...sometimes I feel like an asshole thinking like that...then others I feel justified. His other friends arent talking to him anymore either...of course he hasnt called them in 2 weeks as well...so that goes both ways. So hes just been coming over to my house every other night...or when Im with my girlfriend and talking about the same crap over and over. And whenever asked if hes ok, his reply "Im functioning." Which is getting on my damn nerves...

So drama drama drama.

Havent been able to really get any enjoyment out of the things I usually do. I go to work, get home and have time to do things...but I cant bring myself to do any of it. I could be working out, drawing, watching anime or gaming...hell I just bought like 8 new games......so I have stuff to do. Just cant make myself do it. Ive got an arcade cabinet that needs to be finished and moved somewhere. Got a novel to write. Tons of music to listen to...but I just end up sitting and staring at my computer monitor for a couple of hours...then sleep the rest of the afternoon away. I dont need anymore hobbies. Lol.