So we talked...

And it just seemed like the same old conversation anytime this happens.

"I know....I just have to try harder...."

Im getting tired of hearing that. Its like hearing "Im sorry". After so many times it loses meaning. And I never really know if she means it or not. Especially after you hear it so many times.

Just wanna apologize to anyone who sent me a invite tonight. I wasn't ignoring you. I just really wasnt in the mindset to have a good game. I woulda probably ended up being stupid and overly aggressive and saying something I would regret.

My temper hasn't been bad as of late. But today it almost got the better of me. On the way home from Julia's (after the BS happened), I really wanted to just yell at the top of my lungs and scare someone.

I hate being angry, but it covers up all the other stuff Im feeling at the time...and sometimes the anger is easier to deal with than the rest. Just alot of crap hit me today unexpectedly, and it confused and irritated me. I really didn't need it. But I guess my little bit of stability needed a reality check.

Things aren't as stable as I had hoped they were.

Gatsu OUT!