The Monday the world stood still....not really...

Meh its a Monday.

I was sick pretty much all weekend which was so fun. I think I should do it more often. Boredom being stuck in bed not being able to go anywhere or do anything. Tried to do some gaming...but was just too tired and achey.

Then I get a phone call from Julia yesterday...she seemed to be doing well all weekend. Just a little sick with her sugar being high. Well apparantly she wasnt doing too well. She cut again. I say again...but its been a week or so since its happened last. But it wasn't good she said. I asked how bad it was she said she'd done worse. But that didnt really ease the blow any.

Apparantly it was bad enough her mom had to wrap her arms up.

I'm not too happy with her at the moment, because she hasn't quit smoking like she told me she did either. Last time I was at her house I saw 3 empty packages of cigs on her floor.

This was after she asked me to pick her up some dramamine because she didnt have any money. After I saw those I said "well no wonder you dont have any money...you used it on cigerettes. I should take this dramamine back for that...".

Wasting my gas and my money to buy her dramamine and she spends her cash on something she told me she quit. And before that happened, earlier in the week her mom found nyQuil in her room that she had been taking to stay asleep. And she told her mom I bought it. And I was IN THE ROOM when she told her mom this. Needless to say I did not buy her the said NyQuil.....

So no...Im not happy with her right now. Im not seeing the improvements or changes I was promised. Although I have kept my part of the deal.

I dont know what to do. I know what I probably should do...but I dont know if thats the right choice or not.

I would be very sad for a long time if I decided to let her go...Im not even sure we could be friends. She's an important part of my life and the day doesnt seem complete unless I talk to her. I dont want to lose her...but at this point its not really my choice.

Gatsu OUT!