Gatsu
Shared on Thu, 08/03/2006 - 12:45After much thought and prayer about whats been going on in my life and the struggles I've been dealing with, I finally have been able to come to some conclusions about what I want & need to do with my life.
And thankfully it didn't take more than a day or so to get to these conclusions...about drove me nuts not being able to blog. lol.
Anyway. Onto my conclusions:
#1.) I've been letting a certain friend take advantage of my hospitality since his breakup with his girlfriend. He's been over almost every night since the breakup...and it always ends up the same conversation "I just don't understand it man." So I haven't been able to do anything by myself for a while and its been kind of wearing on me telling him the same thing over and over about it. And just wearing on my nerves in general since I haven't been able to start my workout routine for a couple of weeks and just haven't had any Gatsu time.
So I had to finally tell my friend to take a break for a bit. Because I needed to take care of myself a little more.
#2.) I have finally laid down the law so to speak about my girlfriends current bad habits. It had finally come to a point where the last weekend we spent together was actually spent avoiding physical contact because I don't like kissing an ashtray. And she smoked so much I could smell it on her...and it killed my allergies for several hours afterwards. It doesn't make her any more attractive to me at all. It actually hurts the picture.
She finally saw caught on that it was driving a wedge between us and decided that after this pack, it is her last. So she will stop smoking FINALLY.
#3.) Getting my weight under control. I've been waiting to get started because of the above mentioned crap with my friend. So now I have time to do it. And I will actually be able to kick it off and hopefully by Halloween have dropped some substantial weight. I'm looking to drop a good 100lbs or so. More if possible. And I hope to get my strength up as well. I don't wanna be ripped. I just wanna be able to take some abuse and deal out some pain if anyone decides to get on my bad side.
#4.) My long-term career goal. Movies were my passion growing up. My grandfather actually got me hooked on how movies were made. And even going into local college I've wanted to make movies. The only film school I've wanted to attend was Full Sail in Florida, but I don't think that cost will be manageable by me anytime soon. And If I did go, I would want to be done before Im 30. Which wouldn't happen either. So I've decided on the next best thing. Art & Concept design. That way I can be involved with movies, and use my drawing and writing talents to influence film. And maybe one day have a shot at the directors chair. Hell...Ridley Scott was a concept artist and directed music videos before he made movies. And if I start my own studio, I can work on what movies I choose and have income to possibly have my own film made like old G. Lucas did back when he made Episode IV.
And this means I need to get back into my artistic side hardcore. More drawing, painting and photography. Hell maybe even some music if I can manage to learn how to play my damn guitar. hehe.
#5.) I need to get the hell out of where I am. Aiken, South Carolina does nothing good for me except make me hate horses and the elderly that didn't make it to Florida to die. We have no good Gothic dance clubs...and the only real Gothic dance club I can go to is a gay bar called Spectrum...where they have a event I go to once every month called Spectral Erosa. The event itself is not for gays, but the club its in is for the gay persuasion. And it only happens once a month. And EVERY bar they've ever had it in has been a gay club. I mean no offense to anyone who happens to have chosen that life style. I just don't care for getting hit on by a guy is all. I like the vertical smile and bewbs just fine.
#6.) I need to loosen up and live life. I've been too worried about other people and not having any fun on my own. I need to not worry about other people fucking up so much and just focus on me having a good time...and to say "The hell" to anyone who interferes.
Well thats about it for this post.
Gatsu OUT!
And thankfully it didn't take more than a day or so to get to these conclusions...about drove me nuts not being able to blog. lol.
Anyway. Onto my conclusions:
#1.) I've been letting a certain friend take advantage of my hospitality since his breakup with his girlfriend. He's been over almost every night since the breakup...and it always ends up the same conversation "I just don't understand it man." So I haven't been able to do anything by myself for a while and its been kind of wearing on me telling him the same thing over and over about it. And just wearing on my nerves in general since I haven't been able to start my workout routine for a couple of weeks and just haven't had any Gatsu time.
So I had to finally tell my friend to take a break for a bit. Because I needed to take care of myself a little more.
#2.) I have finally laid down the law so to speak about my girlfriends current bad habits. It had finally come to a point where the last weekend we spent together was actually spent avoiding physical contact because I don't like kissing an ashtray. And she smoked so much I could smell it on her...and it killed my allergies for several hours afterwards. It doesn't make her any more attractive to me at all. It actually hurts the picture.
She finally saw caught on that it was driving a wedge between us and decided that after this pack, it is her last. So she will stop smoking FINALLY.
#3.) Getting my weight under control. I've been waiting to get started because of the above mentioned crap with my friend. So now I have time to do it. And I will actually be able to kick it off and hopefully by Halloween have dropped some substantial weight. I'm looking to drop a good 100lbs or so. More if possible. And I hope to get my strength up as well. I don't wanna be ripped. I just wanna be able to take some abuse and deal out some pain if anyone decides to get on my bad side.
#4.) My long-term career goal. Movies were my passion growing up. My grandfather actually got me hooked on how movies were made. And even going into local college I've wanted to make movies. The only film school I've wanted to attend was Full Sail in Florida, but I don't think that cost will be manageable by me anytime soon. And If I did go, I would want to be done before Im 30. Which wouldn't happen either. So I've decided on the next best thing. Art & Concept design. That way I can be involved with movies, and use my drawing and writing talents to influence film. And maybe one day have a shot at the directors chair. Hell...Ridley Scott was a concept artist and directed music videos before he made movies. And if I start my own studio, I can work on what movies I choose and have income to possibly have my own film made like old G. Lucas did back when he made Episode IV.
And this means I need to get back into my artistic side hardcore. More drawing, painting and photography. Hell maybe even some music if I can manage to learn how to play my damn guitar. hehe.
#5.) I need to get the hell out of where I am. Aiken, South Carolina does nothing good for me except make me hate horses and the elderly that didn't make it to Florida to die. We have no good Gothic dance clubs...and the only real Gothic dance club I can go to is a gay bar called Spectrum...where they have a event I go to once every month called Spectral Erosa. The event itself is not for gays, but the club its in is for the gay persuasion. And it only happens once a month. And EVERY bar they've ever had it in has been a gay club. I mean no offense to anyone who happens to have chosen that life style. I just don't care for getting hit on by a guy is all. I like the vertical smile and bewbs just fine.
#6.) I need to loosen up and live life. I've been too worried about other people and not having any fun on my own. I need to not worry about other people fucking up so much and just focus on me having a good time...and to say "The hell" to anyone who interferes.
Well thats about it for this post.
Gatsu OUT!
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