Night Out...

So last night I went on an outing for this book club I joined.  We all met up at Dave & Busters for dinner and some gaming.  It was nice but kind of an odd way to meet new people.  It's pretty loud in there.  I did have some trouble finding everyone at first but then it was OK.  I met a lot of nice ladies.  Afterwards a few of us went back to Paula's house to hang out and talk.  So something strange and new happend to me at the restaurante.  One of the guys I met (friend of one of the book club ladies) asked me if I had a girlfriend.  When I told him no he actually seemed surprised.  Last night was the 1st time I've ever really been opening "gay" in public before.  It was strange and wonderful all at the same time.

So Paula and I got into this conversation about butch and femme women.  Apparently the way things are here butch and femmes date but generally femmes don't date each other unless they are both super hot according to Paula.  I think she was trying to say that I wasn't super hot now that I think about it but I don't think she meant it in a mean way.  Kind of funny now that I think about it.  Anyway, my problem is that I like very femanine women.  I want a woman who looks and acts like a woman.  So if they won't date me because I don't look or act butch then what the fuck am I supposed to do?  What's the fun of being out if I can't date who I want to?  It's all so very frustrating.  Maybe I've just been watching too much The L Word.  Of course on that show all the women are beautiful and feminine and like each other.  Even the butch characters are very pretty.  *sigh*

Am I destined to just remain single?