I Kissed a Girl...

And I Like I!

I went out on a date with Karen last night. Since we were both really broke but wanting to see each other we decided to stay in and watch Tyler Perry plays on DVD.  I was so nervous driving to her place to pick her up.  I was talking to myself like crazy.  I make it to her house and she comes out looking all fine.  We drive back to my place and she just keeps staring at me.  I have to say it was very un-nerving.  I'm just not used to so much attention.  She actually got me to open up about my life.  I've always had this wall around me so letting someone in is extremely difficult for me.  Difficult but a bit cathardic as well.  It's so nice to finally let things go.  I have been finding myself wanting to just tell her everything I've always been holding back from people.  It's weird.

So back to my date...

We made it back to my place and decided to watch some movies.  We were on the couch watching tv and lauging and talking about things.  I remember thinking that I really wanted to kiss her.  I was just too chicken to make the first move.  So at one point she asked me to take her braids down.  I had her sit on the floor between my legs and I started taking them down.  She had mentioned to me before that she likes having her hair played with.  So while I was taking down her hair I gave her a little scalp massage.  It really seemed to turn her on.  I won't go into all the details but it was really nice.  Right before I took her home she gave me the best kiss.  I've never kissed a woman before.  It was the best kiss that I have ever had.  I got another one when I dropped her off. 

I am so excited about this.  Maybe that isn't the right word.  I am a jumble of emotions right now...all of them good.  I'm trying really hard not to ruin things.  I have a tendency to over think things and they end up all messed up.  I am just trying to take things as they come.  Not to analize anything.  Just enjoy my new life and the new person in my life. 

I've got serious butterflies...