What is wrong with me?

I am turning down an opportunity….a big one...kind of… I just had an old supervisor of mine stop by and BEG me to apply for a job….it was job #3 from 2 blogs ago. $17,000 per year more than my current job. But I REALLY don’t want the job. It would lock me into a chain of command, a chain that revolves around kissing the ass of someone I cannot stand to look at let alone work with. The job is off contract, at will termination, and the work is painfully dull (and coming from a contract accountant that is really saying something). I’d be the only one with a degree applying for it, they are telling me that I would (unless the highest powers of the office came down from their mythical mountain top pallace and bitch-slapped me out of contention) be the one they would pick….but holy hell I don’t want that job, not that my current job is at all entertaining, but this one would be torture.   I am tempted to tell them if they add another $5k to the pay I’d do it, but all that would do is put a bulls eye on my back when layoffs start and being a non-contract position I'd have to wait until my first paycheck to see if payroll accepted the pay grade(they have a habbit of denying raises that aren't on contract.. 

 

It almost made me sick to say I wasn't interested ...I really think that something is wrong with me that I’m turning this down in exchange for a chance to apply for a job that would be a $6,000 raise.  

 

I need someone to come over here and slap me across the face.

 

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