A Question of Desire

Automan21k

Shared on Mon, 02/09/2009 - 08:03

I feel like my motivation has been sapped away from me. as you can see form my blog below, I didn’t know what to do when the choice was up to me without any reservations or stipulations….but even when my wife got home, the boredom and uncertainty continued. Here I sit….27(as of today)...married, good job, good home, a great network of friends(that’s you guys)….and yet I feel like something is missing….and before anyone says it, no, it’s not kids. I feel the need to make something. I want to work with my hands….I always enjoyed it when I was doing random jobs to get through college…but once again the uncertainty enters my mind. 

            I’ve done wood working, Cabinetry, carving, lathe work, home construction, and finish carpentry. I’ve done metal work, welding, CAD/CAM, pipe bending and lathe work. I’ve done electrical work, spending a few majors in Electrical engineering, robotics, industrial automation, and even spent a summer rebuilding arcade games and pinball machines. But here’s the real kicker….I can’t afford any of the equipment to get back into any of those….I’ve debated using all of my talents together to build an arcade cabinet and integrate a game system of some sort into it…but that gets seriously expensive.   I’ve debated opening my own framing shop since the tools and materials for that aren’t that expensive....but I get the feeling making little rectangles won’t fully engross me, but I could mix that with the photography we are already doing….but to take pictures and try to sell them is a dangerous business…it would be much safer to take pictures for people and frame them….but once again, that’s hardly exercising my creativity. 
            I had the same issue when I was in Culinary school, I loved expressing myself through the food I made, but the practical applications were non existent…to get to the point in that career where I was permitted to break from a standard recipe is a million to one odds….and yes I say odds, because I know 2 people who could cook circles around Emeril….but they don’t have a ‘TV friendly’ appearance or style…so no beans…
No, I need something new….a challenge, mentally and physically.
 
So, there it is….I thought I had my mid-life crisis when I bought my SVT Cobra when I was 19….no, here it is…I’m 27 and talking about what kind of legacy will I leave behind…
Well, first things first, finishing the drywall and electrical in the basement….build a proper man-cave to have a midlife crisis in.
 
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fatLUNCH's picture
Submitted by fatLUNCH on Mon, 02/09/2009 - 08:47
I know the feeling... Im 29 and every day i feel like i need to be doing something productive. I also watch DIY network alot and they are always remodeling something and now i feel the need to do what they are doing to my home. lol GL man...
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Submitted by DC_Captain on Tue, 02/10/2009 - 13:43
Happy belated birthday Auto! Looking for an inexpensive hobby? I took up making chain maile armor about two years ago and absolutely love it. There are plenty of how to's on the net, and by making your own rings instead of purchasing them you really feel as though you have accomplished something when a piece is finished. Good luck with whatever you do.

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