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nae

ok so with all my bitching and moaning i never get a break, the few friends i have here in mormonville gave me a call their going out tomorrow night I assume with these ladies that means dinner drinks maybe a movie not to sure since i often am not able to go.... this time the hubby figure is going to be home so i agreed and with all this build up IM HAVING FUKN GUILT.. how is this possible,?????? i'm sane most of the time.... so why is it i cant let go ???? jeesus this is excatly why men think WE"RE nuts!!!!!! bitch you wanna go out.. have a chance to than change ya mind 4 times.... LOL It's just odd its like i want a break... i want to not run when something spills, when a kid cries, when the laundry needs folding... but i want to do it in my PJs reading a book on the back deck.  Basically I would like the hubby type to be the house bitch for one night..... AND again not that he wont... but i will with out fail.. interject some comment he is doing something wrong..... one of the kids will do a hail mary run past him and find me hiding lol again its the control thing... How to let go enough to live.... but still not have guilt afterward. 

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TDrag27·
Maybe your hubby would be willing to take the kids off to do something fun on a Saturday or something so you could have some time off at home and do something that actually appeals to you?
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jasontroyhimself·
Go out. \r Let go.\r Have a few drinks.\r Drunk-dial Magilla.\r \r \r Recipe for laughter.\r \r \r =)\r haha.. have fun Ruh-nay-nay.
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nae·
LOL ok since ya said so jay ~ :)
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FatalPoison·
If you do not give yourself some you time you are going to end up either losing yourself or going insane....neither sound to appeasing to me!! \r \r You just have to force yourself to let go and hand the reins over to the iuney for just a little while!