sigh

I have not had much to say lately, yet I continue to write.  It's because I am a writer, of sorts, and enjoy keeping a log, or diary, as they used to call them.  I also am completely used up by work.  Oh, yeh, my decision, and I stick with it.  But, I am tired, a little depressed, and even bored.  Late night last night?  It was ok.  I got out at about 6:15, which is considered good.  Social life?  I have none.  I went to a party this weekend, and that was an exception.  I work, eat, sleep, rinse and repeat.  Hubby has been a bit attentive, lately.  He loves it when I am working full time (money), too tired to game very much, and feeling "woe is me".  That puts him in control and that's where he likes to be.  All I can say about that is YUK! 

My shrink is gently telling me to "get the hell out!"  She knows my situation better than anyone.  She also knows my emotional energy is about used up.  For a while I was considering it, now, dunno.  It's easier to hide in my cave.  I sleep a lot.  Cry easily.  And wish for things I can't have.  Which makes me unhappy. Which makes me sleep a lot, cry easily...... 

The most exciting thing in my life atm is.......the afghan!  Yes, it is coming along very well.  I have gone thru 4 skeins of yarn and started on a 5th last night.  It will go very nice with your couch, sweet thang.  Um, how big do you want it?  I could just keep going.....  When Christmas is over, and I am done with SAD, I will think about hand delivering it.  You think about it, too!  Oh, yeh, road trip.  That will do it!