just once

Just once, i'd love to know if everyone else really DOES feel the same things i do and look at life similarily. 

and just once, i'd love people to say what they FEEL not what they MEAN

just once, i'd like to not care about any of it

just once, i'd like to keep the king feeling without losing it on the next loop

just once i'd like to have a mulligan on deciding to trust again

just once, i'd like to find work-life balance again

just once, just once, i'd like to not worry about age versus the "right woman". to not wonder where the next paycheck will come from.  to know how to behave in "normal" situations so with all my faults, i fit in.  just once, i'd like to be me in a way that is recognizable to the masses. 

just once or a billion times, i miss the 2o2p crew and wish "things" didn't get in the way

just once, i'd like your neurosis not to become my problem that i try to solve because, yes - i do care, yet you want someone that doesn't.

just once, i'd like to NOT type when emotional. 

just once, just once then forevermore.  cycles the matter not in grandness yet have all totality in the split second of recognition.