Dear Karma,

I've gone over this a million times in my head and it is only now that I am putting into words my questions for you. I think you have treated me so unjustly that I have to ask, "Was she really the one?"

Karma, I know she was good to me...I'm sorry, she was great to me. I was young, curious, impatient and weak. We were in a rough area at that point and because of my mentioned faults I didn't want to weather the storm. Hindsight being so clear, I can see now that it was a test for us. A test that I failed miserably because of my fledgling, naive heart.

To know then what I know now.

Experience twists a cold dagger.

So I ask you Karma, was it so bad that I have had to go through a trilogy of strange, unhealthy, serious relationships since then? You have been at this for 7 years now. When will your marathon lesson be over? I am over her, I have been. Although, I am not ashamed to look back and know how good a partner can be to me. However, she is not the bar to which all others will be compared. It is the disrespectful other three, the Cerberus incarnate that I now stare down at without fear...they have set the bar.

I have crossed the river. I will now go confidently through the gates.

Karma, I am not angry, just wiser. I am not impatient, just excited. When we find each other, I will be sure to thank you, for this woman of no face or name will reap the rewards of all you have taught me.

SIncerely,

your student