Gatsu
Shared on Sun, 10/08/2006 - 18:13Geez. I don't like the weekdays because Im busy, dont like the weekends because Im bored.
I hate being at work, but hate it when Im not there (because Im not making money). What the hell? I dont get it.
Im not on my mansies or anything....that was last week. This has been going on for a bit now. Since I found out my hours might get cut, and then they got cut last week.
Not really too happy with anything going on at the moment. My buddy and I are trying to get a comic off the ground, but I don't find any interest in it right now. I pick up a pen and get no interest in what I'm drawing. And whenever he and I talk about it I get agitated because I think hes trying to jump ahead too fast.
Even in Halo I'm not as interested as I should be. I cut out after a couple of games. Nothings going on with Julia right now. So thats good. She actually got a letter saying she was accepted for social security. So thats awsome. A little bit of light for her situation finally.
Theres a KMFDM concert going in Atlanta this coming weekend....I wanna go....but I don't. I say its because of money, but I don't know. I wanna see them live. But theres this pull saying "No dont bother...its gonna suck."
I've sat in my room all day watching Titus on DVD, or sitting in the dark listening to music and surfing the interweb. Bored out of my mind.
Damned if I do....damned if I don't. What the fuck is wrong with me. I wanna grab life by the ears and say "HEY BITCH! GIMME SOME FUN! NOW!" But the second I decide to do it (whether it be the comic thing or a concert) I start 2nd guessing myself and just bringing myself to a point of "don't bother...it won't turn out...just like everything you ever ACTUALLY tried to accomplish or strive for."
I have this crushing feeling of "You'll never get out of Aiken, you'll never accomplish any of you're goals. Just settle, get a real job, forget about movies, comics and all the things you love and just grow the fuck up and move on with your boring existence."
I think this coming weekend instead of going to Atlanta I need to go to the beach and have a little time for myself. Although I don't like being alone for too long...it may be worth it.
Its kinda sad when the only thing you are looking forward to is Gears of War...
Gatsu OUT!
I hate being at work, but hate it when Im not there (because Im not making money). What the hell? I dont get it.
Im not on my mansies or anything....that was last week. This has been going on for a bit now. Since I found out my hours might get cut, and then they got cut last week.
Not really too happy with anything going on at the moment. My buddy and I are trying to get a comic off the ground, but I don't find any interest in it right now. I pick up a pen and get no interest in what I'm drawing. And whenever he and I talk about it I get agitated because I think hes trying to jump ahead too fast.
Even in Halo I'm not as interested as I should be. I cut out after a couple of games. Nothings going on with Julia right now. So thats good. She actually got a letter saying she was accepted for social security. So thats awsome. A little bit of light for her situation finally.
Theres a KMFDM concert going in Atlanta this coming weekend....I wanna go....but I don't. I say its because of money, but I don't know. I wanna see them live. But theres this pull saying "No dont bother...its gonna suck."
I've sat in my room all day watching Titus on DVD, or sitting in the dark listening to music and surfing the interweb. Bored out of my mind.
Damned if I do....damned if I don't. What the fuck is wrong with me. I wanna grab life by the ears and say "HEY BITCH! GIMME SOME FUN! NOW!" But the second I decide to do it (whether it be the comic thing or a concert) I start 2nd guessing myself and just bringing myself to a point of "don't bother...it won't turn out...just like everything you ever ACTUALLY tried to accomplish or strive for."
I have this crushing feeling of "You'll never get out of Aiken, you'll never accomplish any of you're goals. Just settle, get a real job, forget about movies, comics and all the things you love and just grow the fuck up and move on with your boring existence."
I think this coming weekend instead of going to Atlanta I need to go to the beach and have a little time for myself. Although I don't like being alone for too long...it may be worth it.
Its kinda sad when the only thing you are looking forward to is Gears of War...
Gatsu OUT!
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