BURNT OUT

Well here's the full story of why I'm taking a break.  As many of you know I work 2 jobs and have for over 4 years now, in the past couple of months I have been putting in overtime at my 1st job.  My 1st job is from 3pm to 11pm the 2nd job is from 11:30pm to 7am in the morning.  I was informed last week that at my 1st job that a operator quit and 3rd shift will need to be covered on Fridays and Saturdays 3rd shift (the days I'm off).  Well I got nominated to train the new guy until I feel comfortable that he can handle it himself, which will take probably until after the first of the year.  The Head Operator is planning on retiring next year which they are going to hire another guy to start getting him trained, and I'm getting stuck doing that.

A couple of years ago my dad's health got pretty bad, and he had to quit work.  He fell on hard times no money, he had to wait 3 months to get his retirement.  Which got him in a bind with bills.  So I helped all I could and would do it again and wished I could have done more.  I started working 2nd shift when my oldest daughter was in the 1st grade now, she's in 7th grade.  I haven't got to spend alot of time with her in these past several years do to her going to school and me working 2nd shift.  My youngest daughter I started working my 2nd job when she was 1 year old.  I miss them sooo bad, I hope they understand when they get older the reason why I wasn't there was because I had, too not because I wanted too.

I started working full time at both jobs, and after 2 years cut back to part time at my second job (4 days a week).  I never have no "me time" when I'm off on Fridays and Saturdays I try to do what the family wants to do or run errands, do yard work etc etc etc.  I'm to the point now that I think I'm at the breaking point, I so tried that I don't have enough energy to do anything my personality has changed, I don't crack jokes all the time anymore I don't have motivation to do anything.  Maybe it's a middle life crisis, but I'm only 33 (Saturday is my birthday I'll be 34), maybe I'm just burnt out I don't know.  I have a overwhelming urge just to buy a motorcycle, shave my head (never have done that before) shave "clean shaved" (I have always have some type of facial hair), put a couple hundred bucks in my pocket and just pike a direction and go, and not come back for a week or so. 

I don't know why I have this urge, maybe it's to do some soul searching, maybe I'm tired of life, or maybe not having a life.......

But don't worry about me I'm fine just need to figure some stuff out.

DOUBLE WHAT?????????

 

Posted by DualShock_1 @ 6:57 pm EDT | Permalink | 2 Comments

Some Random Rambling

I just thought I would blog about random stuff. Most people know that I'm from southeastern KY, yes only about 1 hour from where Kentucky Fried Chicken was orginated!!! lol. The town I live in has 4 stop lights in it, yes it's small but some very beautiful country if you just stop and look. I really love the fall, we have mountains all around use and when the leaves change it's just wonderful. I'm amost done getting both kids and the wife in school, my oldest is in the 7th grade now, (man they grow up quick) the little one is in Kindergarden this year. My wife is starting college this year. She's going into Nursing, dam it takes alot of work just to get into college, and money, she has drove out $140 in gas last week just getting ready for college. So I really don't want to know how much money we have spent on school for this year. My wife and 2 daughters are all redheads, I still don't know what I have done to deserve to live with 3 redheads but it must have been pretty bad

Mini Me League, I'm really glad Caesar started this thing up, the "in crowd" of 2o2p kinda has a bad rap. Yeah they like competitive Halo, so what? I was drafted by Fire along with Bioslayer RichardHead and Torlacher. I knew Fire, Bio and Richard from there reputations around the site. So Fire sets up a time for all of us to get together, he sends me a invite. I was a little nerves and I was the first one in the room, I thought O shit. Then we start talking about Halo, an then he just says if there is anything you want or need to know, just ask. And then Bio, Richard and Torlacher jumps in the room, these guys are super nice and answered any questions anyone had. I knew I couldn't compete with these guys and they knew it too. But they didn't care, no one told me I sucked, they just treated me like a teammate. So my hat goes off to Team Fire It Up.

I have seen where people are getting nerves about getting traded. Yeah, I have a great team with a great GM, but if I get traded, I just benefit from it. I get to play with more great players and meet people I've never played with before (and never thought I would play with them). Yes it would be nice to place in the first MML and get a prize, but if I don't so be it. I take away that I got to play with some of the best Halo players from 2o2p.

Now I'm just waiting for the guys from Clanarchy to see that I live 1 hour from where KFC was born. lol

 

 

Posted by DualShock_1 @ 5:31 pm EDT | Permalink | 14 Comments

Desire & Dedication

I have been working on my Halo game alot the past couple of months.  I have also been trying to be apart of a team, to no success, and which I can't understand unless people just think my playing sucks.  After playing custom games with my clan (2old2playHALO), I can tell my game has improved and I might have even suprised a couple of better players in my clan.

My biggest weakness in Halo is being the straight up slayer person, so I have been trying to work on that.  I have always thought that my best role was a support player, and with that I'm happy.  I have even went as far as trying to join another Halo clan one that I thought would be more competitive, and again DENIED. 

So this is where the title to this blog fits in, I could take all this to heart and personnally, but I'm not.  I'm just going to use all this, to strive to be better and make myself better.  Because I have the desire and (if anyone is on my FL can tell you) I have the Dedication.

 

Posted by DualShock_1 @ 9:02 pm EDT | Permalink | 1 Comments

HALO 3

I really have a love/hate relationship with Halo, I have spent many hours of working on my own gameplay.  Everything from getting Nozgoth to help me forge maps, to strafing and running when hurting.  I've even went as far to post in the clan forums and public forums about getting a team going for Team Slayer (the playlist I can't stay away from).  I really didn't get any bites on the team thing, but did have several people that wanted to help.

I think alot about stuff I'm passionate about, and yes Halo is one of them.  I replay games in my head while at work and watch some games in theater, a couple of things that I have noticed.  I have practiced strafing for hours upon hours and didn't use it that much in TS.  I have a tendance to try and impress certain ppl from 2o2p, and then this past Thursday night I went into Team Slayer with 3 other Village Idiots.  I didn't think we would do very good considering the rank differences 15-30.  But for once in very long time, I was completely comfortable and wasn't trying to impress anyone.  We won 6 out of 8 games, with the 2 we lost losing by a slim margin.  And then I noticed, I was strafing like I practiced for so long.

So all in all I would just like to thank the ones hows helped me. 

AgedSANDSHARK -- He knows how I play and to get me killin'
Nozgoth076 -- he's helped me forge several maps for practicing BRs and Snipers.
THEDUMBPIMP aka xboxapprovedtag -- I don't have to worry about my back he's got it with the shotgun
II NME II  -- Several hours of nothing but BR and Snipe training, pick out each others "bad habits"
lazy sk8r -- Helping me on callouts and also several hours of BR and snipe practice.

Posted by DualShock_1 @ 7:02 pm EDT | Permalink | 3 Comments

NSFW ADULT HUMOR

Some friends of mine, sorry but I don't know how to link it like youtube.

Episode 1

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=23836019

Episode 2

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=26294691

Posted by DualShock_1 @ 5:38 pm EDT | Permalink | 1 Comments